Things in my life lately have felt very chaotic. Mallory's demands have consumed a lot of my time and energy and now we've added Quentin's hearing loss to the mix. Often I feel like my other kids aren't getting as much of my time as they really need. When I'm not shuffling around to doctors appointments or talking on the phone with doctors, the insurance company or equipment companies I'm dead tired. Whatever energy I can muster up goes towards making sure there's a hot meal on the table at dinner time, that Mallory's cares are being done daily and that my kids get out the door for school on time every day.
Cleaning falls to the wayside on most days. I don't eat or sleep well. And on top of it all, when I have to run my photography business at the same time, I feel very overwhelmed. I want to be one of those super moms that can manage the kids, the meals, the running around, the special needs child and the job all at the same time. It's proven quite difficult.
I've decided to take a step back. Slow down my business for now. Do what I need to do for my family. I don't want to toot my own horn, but I'm what keeps us all moving every day. I have to be on my game all of the time and not too overwhelmed. I have to enjoy my family and make sure they are my priority 100% of the time. I know I'm still going to feel overwhelmed quite often but knowing that I'm choosing them and focusing on them more than anything else energizes me. Especially with what's to come very soon. We're gearing up for Mallory's first cranial surgery. It's going to take a toll on all of us.
I've also decided that I'm going to blog more (I know I've said this before, but hopefully I don't lie this time.). I'm going to take more pictures of my own kids. I don't do it enough. I'm going to stop worrying about what the perfect thing to write about is. If it's too serious or funny or stupid. I'm just going to share.
So, all that said, I introduce my blog for today. My day in photos. I wanted to start this on Saturday, but it didn't work out as planned. We actually took the whole family out (Tyler excluded as he was with his dad). I woke up in the morning and decided I didn't want to just sit around all day. I also decided that I was tired of being scared of taking Mallory out of the house. It's a fear I have to get over at some point. We packed everyone up as best as we could and traveled to Jewel and picked up Mallory's prescriptions. Then we hunted for a place to eat lunch. The boys wanted Culvers but when we got there the parking lot was so jam packed we just couldn't justify squeezing ourselves in there. We drove around a bit more and decided on Taco Bell. Not really my top pick, but the kids enjoyed it. Especially the cinnamon twists. Who doesn't enjoy cinnamon twists? Then we went to Walmart to do some grocery shopping. I was too busy with my list and making sure our two carts of children and groceries made it out alive to stop and take photos.
Today I took my camera out more determined. Even though we didn't go anywhere I wanted to document my day. So, with out further ado, here they are. (Photos copyright of Cathy Broz Photography.)
I woke up to my sweet ray of sunshine. Always happy and ready to play!
He came home with a balloon!
Then it was time to give the little lady a bath and do a trach change. She was extra stinky today, so a bath was well needed!
Tonight, Chef Mom prepared a Smoked Sausage Pasta with Green Peppers. It was tasty!
Finally, Quentin sleeps. Not in his own bed mind you, but he's cozy on the couch until Mommy carries him to bed!
There you have it. My day in pictures! I hope to do something like this a little more often. I enjoyed it!!
Have a great week everyone!